it's all about me, me, me

Won't be around for a little while - just to let you know, back in due course though x

Thanks to Seaside man on askoranswer blog I have now managed to block bebo. I have done so because the blonde has been spending time on there chatting to her mates, but some of them are 2 years older than her and there seems to be flirting going on - totally unsuitable for a 10year old! I did speak to her but as she uses the computer for other stuff unless one of us stands over her it is impossible to police it.

I feel like a complete cow for blocking the site, but can't help being relieved that when you try and access it, it just says windows cannot access the page and not YOUR BITCH MUM HAS BLOCKED THE SITE - GO AND STAB HER WITH A KNITTING NEEDLE!

Will now have a stroppy kid around the place who will be bemused by it all and hate the computer for a while - until she discovers that it has indeed been blocked and finds a way to unblock it that is! Kids, dontcha just love em?

I worry that I am going to go to hell. I don't believe you see, not in anything, I never have, and was always confident that after death there was just nothing - much like before being born. Now, though I desperately want to believe in something. I am terrified of dying, absolutely petrified of it.

I classed myself as an agnostic - willing to be convinced by God at the pearly gates - but aren't I just hedging my bets and do I really think it will work if I say to the great man himself 'oh, now I see you, I believe and you should let me in'.

So, now I think maybe I should start trying to get some Brownie points to offset the sins I have committed. BUT, if I am helping people in order to be allowed into heaven, surely I won't be admitted? Doesn't help have to be given alturistically? Or is it better to help others regardless? Maybe I should just continue to be a complete bitch - after all only the good die young so should I just live selfishly for a very long time?

I really need to figure out the points system so I can work out how many I need to cancel all the bad acts I have committed. I like the idea of a clean slate but need absolution to get it and only catholics get that before death don't they? I would pop over the road to the catholic chapel and see if the priest can help, but I fancied one once and you might say a bit of corruption went on under his cassock!! So, it probably isn't a good idea.

Oh fuck it, I will go and see if I can find an old lady to drag across the road, whether she likes it or not!

Had a lovely evening yesterday in the pub, some of us made the effort and dressed up for Halloween. I made my hat myself and although I didn't get a rousing chorus of 'where did you get that hat' when I entered the bar I was still rather pleased with it - it took me 20 minutes you know!
Hubby looked very confused once I was ready as he had thought I had said I was going as a PILOT!
Two of the lads went down and set up some spooks in the trees that lit up - all very cool, except for the bloody rain! There was a girl doing fire juggling too.
Anyhow, just thought I would let you know a good time was had by all and here is me, some friends and my hat.

Last weekend whilst catching up with friends I haven't seen in over a year there were comments about my weight. Now, we all know I have been going to the gym so you would think they were compliments - NO, they were not. Everyone said I had porked on the pounds! I denied this vehemently fully believing I hadn't. I then realised that I was about a stone lighter this time last year, but couldn't have been as toned right? WRONG!
Caught sight of self in photos and a shop mirror yesterday which made me gag! I am really very fat - I weighed myself at the gym today and the 5 pounds that I lost has come back after one measly weekend on the beer. It's not fair, I am trying really hard and getting nowhere.

So, this is the plan;
Tomorrow and Sunday I am going to eat, drink and be bloody merry (bloody mary is also possible as am at halloween do tomorrow night) and I am going to give the exercise a miss.
BUT
Monday, I am going to have to step up the pace and try and eat a bit less too, at least until Christmas. i probably need to lose the stone I will gain over the festive period.

Honestly, I feel i have let myself down, after those weeks last year on that vile diet shake I have just let all the weight pile back on again.

If you were a childs birth certificate put away for safekeeping but now required - where would you be?

hello good people, I am back after my long weekend away - had a great time catching up with old friends - did get very drunk on Saturday as for some reason the drink I popped out for turned into several BEFORE webselects party - so by party kick off time I was already hammered, and apparently very rude to everyone - but I usually am when drunk, so nobody expected much different.
Party theme was 'the future' - a tough one, so I went as myself in the future and wore an old lady nighty (bought new - was gonna get one from a charity shop, but realised someone would probably have died in it), slippers with a grey wig and a colostomy bag (new again) stuck to my hip outside the nightie - didn't have to worry bout make-up, thank God as I arrived back from drinking session in the pub a few minutes before I had to appear! So I looked like this ( i seem to have lost the wig!)
I won't bore you with the rest - they are on facebook.
Sunday popped round to catch up with some more friends and then back to pub for a quickie and a meal that night, which was lovely. Monday saw us heading back home but not before meeting up with the lovely blue2pink from our very own blogland - she is sooooo lovely, sweet natured and kind, I am so glad she is my friend on here and now out there in the real world too. Here we are BDA and B2P

I have loads to do before I leave tomorrow for the UK to party and whilst I would love there to be NO photos of me in my fancy dress outfit at webselects birthday bash - I fear he will post on his everestorbust blog.
Am also going to meet the lovely blue2pink for a coffee - can't wait.

So, I am leaving you all now until next Tuesday - won't be home til Monday night and am expecting to be in fairly bad shape!

To a wonderful blogger of this parish, I wish a very happy birthday filled with pampering, Jo Malone candles, gorgeously smelly bubbles in the bath - not created by his Lordship of course - the nice sort of smelly.
I hope you have a wonderful day my love x

Hubby has had a bit of a raw deal of late, on here, from me. He doesn't comment so has no redress for any claims by me about him. It is time to put the record straight. I don't take back anything I have previously said for it is all true, it may be the view from my skewed perspective, but it is true all the same.
But, in the interests of fairness you should probably know the following;

He is
Good looking
Charming
Intelligent
Funny
A great Dad

Despite my moans about funds he is generous and has just bought me a very expensive coat, and is funding the Base Camp climb to the tune of £1500 plus the clothing - around another £500, I need little tops from Karen Millen which may cost that alone! I also need boots and a rucksack to the tune of another couple of hundred quid, all of which he will buy.
He MOT's, taxes and maintains my car, pays my mobile phone and all of the household bills.

In short, he keeps me in a very nice style and I never have to worry about anything very much. In return I shop for and put a meal on the table most days - unless I just don't feel like it, then he takes us out to dinner or pays for a takeaway. I don't clean or iron or do much more really than the school run!

Oh, and he loves me - The Lord alone knows why, but he does - could be the great sex!!!

Anyway, he doesn't deserve the moaning that comes from this quarter so I thought you should all know he does have good points - and a lot of them!